Nobody's Life is perfect

(Source: thisisthefirstthing)

Ideas are never dead because we all have an imagination and no matter how much knowledge we have if we can still have knowledge of basic everyday things, we will be able to have a bright thought!

When theres nothing else to do i wait. I wait for the day where ill wake up with no pain in my heart. I wait mainly for a week, a month or year when I’m constantly happy. But life is not fair. No matter how long you wait for that eternal happiness it never comes. No matter how hard i try to be happy there is always something making me regret getting out of bed. God sometimes i wish i could go back in time and erase the things that made me have this condition.

First day of uni and im already having doubts

maybe my brain is only built for school settings………………..

I couldnt get down any good notes today .

The lecturer talked so fast…….

Its not like school.

:(

Everyone gets it.

I’ve had for a long time its the main reason why i haven’t wrote more for my books. I know the story but i just can’t do it.I’ve had all this time to write and i haven’t done it.I write all the time but those are just rants there not stories . I used to comment on writers network all the time and i use to publish things a lot in year 10 but my insecurities got in the way. When i wrote in year 10 it was to get it out. Now that its finally over I can’t get past it. I’m still stuck in the past.

I’ve forgiven and moved on but i can’t forget. If i was to be really honest to all of you i’m saying and looking a lot better than a couple of months ago even though I know i’m not. I know i’m not going to wake up tomorrow and feel happy it doesn’t work that way. Its sad when your working so hard to beat something when you know deep down in your heart nothing will change but you keep at it anyway because you know you can’t let it have control of you. I’ve apologized  a million times for what i did wrong. I know it doesn’t make it right.

I just want to be proud to be me.

I think too much.

I care too much.

Even though i saw him yesterday.

I wish i could see him now.

but then i think i feel same about everyone i care about.

Some people on this earth mean the world to me.

No more than that they mean everything,the universe,my life,anything.

I would anything to keep these people happy and alive.

I’ll do anything to take care of those i love and when its time for me to be there for them i will be there.

This is a problem though…………….

i don’t know what to do…………

Ugh i feel so sick